It does get better

My last post was in June. It has been awhile. Partly it was the herx and partly I just felt quiet about talking about this disease. I was going through a quiet phase. I had my fair share of herx these past few months which mostly was nausea and lots of it. I can honestly say I hate nausea. I didn't mind the nausea when it was following a night of tequila shots but that was also on weekends not every single day, all day long. As of late it has gotten better which is why I am back to blogging (well just one blog really). This past weekend I recieved a phone call from somebody that also has Lyme and felt discouraged and frightened of the treatment. That phone call got me thinking. It seems that there is lots of information on Lyme disease and how horrible it is from Lyme patients but once these Lyme patients get better they get on with their lives and do not continue sharing the other side of Lyme disease. That other side is where 'the good stuff' is. It is absolutely normal once the treatment is over to get on with ones life and put as much distance from this ordeal as possible however I have never been that normal about anything! Taking all these antibiotics does suck. Some of them taste so vile that words do not exist that can explain the taste. It's one of those things that has to be experienced to be understood. The woman that called me this past weekend expressed concern about taking antibiotics. Yes, there are risks with antibiotics. There are risks with a lot of things. The example I have is this- there are risks associated with radiation and chemotherapy for cancer patients but that doesn't mean they do not go into treatment, it does not mean they let the cancer grow. This Lyme bacteria can not be allowed to just grow in my body. It must be stopped. The antibiotics must stop it and stop it they are hence the herx. This is my thinking on my treatment and everyone is entitled to their own opinion on this. I am not completely on the other side of this disease but I am getting there. And from where I am standing it's pretty damn good. The pain gets less and less, the fatigue starts to abate and my memory gets better. The herx by way of nausea, joint pain, headaches and faitigue are worth it. And what's more it's temporary - I will not be sick forever. The antibiotics are working, they just take time. It took the Lyme bacteria years to distroy my body and now it will take awhile for the antibiotics to restore it. I am very lucky- I was diagnosed early enough that my life was not destroyed by it completely. It will just take some time. I have gotten well enough that now I am impatient with my treatment and I want it over and done with. That is a good sign. I now have the energy to be impatient where as a year ago I did not. So, just to repeat again- it does get better. The other side is where 'the good stuff' is and where Lyme disease will be a part of my past not a part of my future. Until next time - stay tick free and toodles for now.