Cheating and frustrations

It's fall. The leaves are changing and falling to the ground. The temperature is dipping and I want hot buttered bread. Can't do that will on the Lyme disease yfsf diet...so I cheated...more than once. It started with a one night stand of sandwich eating to an orgie of food. I actually thought if I cheated a bit somehow I would get struck down by lightening or something equally crazy but nothing really happened. I was fine so I kept cheating from time to time until I realised that I had to get back to my strict food diet. So I did. And it's not so bad. I just got so tired and jealous of seeing everyone eating all this yummy comfort food and I couldn't. It was like having my nose pressed up against the window pane and I was outside whimpering at the bread. Damn I miss bread but only when it's cold outside. During the summer following the yfsf diet was easy. It's easy to eat healthy in the summer time but when it gets cold I want bread and cupcakes. Fall and winter is all about the comfort foods.
To help my comfort food cravings along I actually made beef and chicken stock for hearty winter soups and stews. The store bought stocks have yeast or something else that is not allowed. Okay so this was the cheating portion of my blog, now comes the frustrations.

My frustrations of late have once again come from the medical community and how they treat Lyme patients. I am still trying to find a family doctor to treat me alongside my lyme doctor. I had another appointment with yet another doctor who was 'not comfortable' treating me because he does not how much about the disease. I offer them many choices to educate themselves but they refuse. It is absolutely and incredibly rediculous that as doctors they will only treat what they know. Did medical school not cover all the diseases including lyme? I can understand not knowing everything about every disease known to man or woman but to refuse to learn about it is inexcusable. It's ignorant. It's willfull stupidity on the part of the medical community. Also arrogance for the doctor's that refuse to dicuss my blood results because they are not sure what they are reading and refuse to get informed by the patient. Lyme patients - we know more about this disease than almost all the family doctors out there.
I am finding out that these doctors are as good as their easiest patient to treat because they are clueless about a hard or difficult disease. There are some exceptions to that rule but most doctors I have found to be as useless as they come they just have the title of MD next to their name. I have determined after seeing countless unhelpful doctors that MD stands for Moronic Dickhead.
I have another appoitment next month with another doctor. I wish I was all optimistic about it but I am not. Getting my meds from an internet pharmacy is very expensive and it would be nice to not be hemorraghing money every month. Damn, Lyme disease takes a long time to treat properly and it does get expensive in a hurry.
The medical community and Public Health Canada is a major disappointment. Canada is all proud that they offer medical care (that is free) to all it's citizens but the reality of the situation they do not. I have yet to receive it here. I am going to the States for treatment because there is no specialist here in Quebec and the Quebec doctors are too uneducated and unfamiliar and refuse to change their narrow minded stance and get informed about Lyme disease. Also I am getting my antibiotics from the internet - not from Quebec. And I am paying taxes to fund a health care system that is not offering me any health care. I do believe that would change if a politician or the health care minister get Lyme disease but until someone in power that makes health care decisions that matter gets Lyme disease us patients just have to struggle through it and learn from each other how to navigate the tricky waters of this disease.